Indifference

I though you are difference with others, but i'm wrong....


It is correct with the title of mine "Hopeless_life". Life is that uncertain, it may peace and quiet but it may unpeace and unquiet sometime. I do really feel enough with all of it. I'm gonna ruin with all of it. Nothing is perfect in our life.

- MaureenNg -

Enough

I'm ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MAY YOU FUCK OFF?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry for my rude-ness... im just need some way to release my anger...


- MaureenNg -

Sigh

It doesn't seem everything could go on swimmingly as what I thought...

Are you ever think that life is fair for us? Yes, maybe there is but only apart from it.
I ensure that there is ninety over hundred percent of human in this world will agree with life is UNFAIR in this world. The furniture of one's pocket, relation between family, friendship or love.
To conquer the unfair in our life other than strain after there is still strain after.
Well, that how life go on......


- MaureenNg -

stress

Its been a long time i'm dissappear in bloggie life... The reason is i wonder what can i share with all reader bout my life...

Nothing can describe how suffer i feel with the stress-ness around my life... Well... Maybe i'm just a little pile of sand case compare to others...

Sometime.....I really feel tired..... tired.... tired with my life.... It's really hard to stay in a city without money...

No MONEY = No TALK

Maureen Ng

A Never Ending Scar

Scar by ~Ernes on deviantART

Tolerant is the best way for the happiness to start,
Do you remember the white rose you gave me?
It's represent that how pure is our love,
Yet it couldn't stay white and pure for permanent.

Although it ever to be in bloom how beautiful it is,
It will wilt at last just like my heart die at last.
It's just a glamorous moment that we enjoy,
Just like you ever love me as deep as you are.


- MaureenNg -

The Tender Passion

You tell me that we should let go each other earlier,
walk over the beyond life of us...
I let go at last although i'm really don't want to give up...
Would you forgive me?

Forgive me decide to let you go,
Stay far from your shadow...
Let my mind swallow up your image in my memories,
Just to protect my heart will not get hurt by you...

Yet... Have you ever think that?
I'm do really appreciate you whatever you are...
I try to love as much as deep i could,
Yet... I can't do it for you anymore...
You dosen't belong to mine anymore...

I don't know that you really mean to or not,
I felt that you always act to be cool infront of me..
Our love just like the deep shore of the sea...
Unreachable... Unfeelable... Unreplyable...

It's like the cancer eat up my feeble's heart...
Hurt me so bad.... Really painfull...
Please forgive for my selfishness...
I admit that im a sympathetic person...

I'm afraid... Afraid to be hurt again...
I'm tired... Tired to be in love again...
I'm sad... Sad to stay away from you...
I'm pain... Pain force to forget you...

Will you still stay for me?? I know i'm stupid....


- MaureenNg -

Happy Birthday lovely Mom

I'm so sorry to all of my blogdie readers that i'm lack of posing nowadays...
It is because I'm busy hanging out with my friends " YAM CHA "... haha....
This time might be a short post only.... haha...
Well... Yesterday was Hari Gawai was also my MoM's birthday.. hehe....
How good when your birthday is on public holiday...
Can celebrate every year without caring others cant attend your birthday party... Haha...
Unlike me.... My birthday always in Every year Sch Sem Exam.... Bek chek...

My lovely mom and lil brother....

- MaureenNg -

Happy Birthday to Me

It's Official. I am finally 16 years old today.

Ofcoz... Everyone wish to get present on the day of birthday...
I want to thanks to all of my friend that wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY...
Also for my classmate and schoolmate...
Good Luck in Mid Year Examination...

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I do really surprise with the birthday card i got today...
I though it's from my Mom...
However, it's from my beloved Ming...

I know I know... It's cute enough... XD

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Another gift from Ming too...
Well... You will not want to know what is inside...
The secret that can't be tell... XD

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Wishes from friend...
Present from beloved...
Birthday cake cant be less too....


Nice is it... HahaX...
Ice-cream cake... Our beloved cake favour...

I wasn't closing my eyes but the angle makes me like closing my eyes...
Rest in peace?!?!! ( choi~!) hahaX...

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Thats all for today to pass up my birthday....
Happy Birthday Me...


- MaureenNg -

The ENVY feeling

I felt a pang of ENVY at the thought of his freedom...
In the world of 24th century...
Why there still some guys having an ancient thinking...
How come you can get your enjoyment of ease and comfort of freedom but i can't...
Don't you ever think that its unfair for me...

Whenever i see your friend care about you...
I miss my friend...
Whenever i see you hang out with your friend...
I miss my friend...
Whenever i try to call my friend...
I can only tell myself not to think much...

I spend all my time with you...
I put all intentions on you...
But you still can't get what i want...
You make me feel sad in the end...

I really ENVY you....
I DO REALLY ENVY YOU!!!

I know i will not get back my freedom once im still be with you...

- MaureenNg -

Heartache

Another day again... Past usually...
Without excitement, surprising and empty of meaning...
Its been 2 weeks, I still cant get what i really need... I'm absolutely lost...
How am i going to tell you?
Myself don't even know what I need...
There is something weighing on my mind... How do i release it?
Its empty up the source of my feelings...
I know happiness wasn't given by other but your ownself...
I try to smile... I try to happy...

Well... I admit that i need some entertainments...
To make me laugh and real happy thou my deep heart...
You restrict me with my friend... I let you do so... I listen to you...
But... After that, did you find any entertainment for me?
To make me laugh and happy thou my deep heart....

My phone is getting less and less beep on day by day...
I wonder is my friend don't dare to find me or their phone have no credit...
So i choose to be the one who make others phone beep...

Still remember that u say seeing I'm sad because my phone dosen't beep
and beep up my phone... But...
You forget nowadays... I'm always waiting for your call or even a text from you.... But...
I waited until i fell in sleep it still the same... No miss call.. No text from you...

You always act to be cold and strict... I felt disgusted with it...
I needs your sound of laugh and funny action...
If u did not do so... I choose to make you laugh... But...
I'm a human that have feeling... Wasn't a robot....
Will you make a surprise for me?

I'm getting tired with my life... I know...
Maybe there someone having more bad an experience than me...
I shouldn't tired with my life.. But...
I'm starting to give up slowly...
The sorrow of my heart just like the cancer eating my body cell slowly...



- MaureenNg -

My daddy's 53 years old b'day...

This will be a short post...


I dunno issit me or what, but it seems that everyone around me has their birthday sprouting up like mushrooms lately,today ( 4th April 2008 ) birthday happens to be my dad's. As a daughter, I made " Red Egg " for my dad... I just want to show him my filial obedience to him.... I purposely don't want to greet him Happy Birthday in the morning cause i plan to tell him at diner time and pass him the present... Hehe...

Hmm.... The second time we took family photo this year... I think my dad should wear the shirt that i bought him last year... Then we will become 4 in red... HAHAHA....

The b'day cake for my dad from my mom.... I wonder since when the last time my mom call my dad " LAO GONG ".... I think around 8 years ba... So long ago.... well... Wish my dad healthy always... (^.^)



- MaureenNg -

B'day present of w3nDy...

Before mention bout the present... I might make an introduce for my friend that i knew almost 6 years long... Our relationship begun because a games of " chulut "... It's a game that chase each other and run away from the one who is catcher... Hmmm... I couldn't explain clearly cause it was happened few years ago... I often call her Yan Ming when we still in primary school... But now... She got herself a Christian name " Wendy "and getting prettier more sexy...


She is single... definitely.. Ignore bout me inside the photo... Wasn't i don't want to post only herself personal photo.. Reason is i don't have... Well... She's able to play and joke somemore hyperactive like me... This is the friend i need... This world should have more this kind of people.... Well, she passed her 16 years old birthday with me and so on our 2 best accompanist
( Adam ^ Patrick )..
Pretty girl sure got a lot of fans rite... Of cause wont be lack of B'day present....


Well... This is the present that she got... It's from Alvex... Ignoring bout who was holding the soft-toy or should call it fake- soft- porn... LOLX!!


It looks fake enough... Does boy always do so at home?? hahaha...


Well... Posing want to get pee.... LoLx.... So... U can figure out that we were too boring and took this kind of photo at home...



- MaureenNg -

The sounds of weep...

I made a song with the sound of heart break.


The music accompaniment was the dropping tears of mine.


I made up the musical note with the annoying thinking.


Finally...


I end up my songs with the pretty sadness of mine.


- MaureenNg -

Outside the window,
Night with shining stars on it.
I sat nearby the window look thou the sky,
Feeling the shining star with sadly emotion.

Our love just like the star,
Sometime shine sometime dark.
Our heart always so far,
When could i touch your heart?

I stay inside the ice cube,
So cold So freeze.

- MaureenNg -

How could it be?

The days i waited has arrived,
The things i waited has appear.
Yet i wasn't happy as i'm expect,
Yet i wasn't surprise as i'm want to.

I'm sat infront the window look thou the sky,
My mind was empty again.
When the brightness of sunlight lighted me,
The hazy of ur image was slowly appear in my mind.

Once you walk though the sky,
The moment of happiness crushed on me.
Once you walk away the sky,
The moment of happiness become ashes.

You said that you will meet me again,
To takes an unknown time in the world.
Yet those were the pretty promise for me,
It dosen't occur at last.

Time, i hope you wont eat every memories of mine.
I don't want to be dreams of him.
No reasons... No why...
Just a feeling being drown in the sea of time.

No limit... No boundaries... No ending...
Yet a weightless light which wish for not being forgotten.


- MaureenNg -

Pure of Fake

Loving someone is easy,
Yet uneasy to be with someone.
Neither its pure love,
Nor its fake love.

Human being wasn't a doll,
Yet they have emotioness.
Human is born to have intelligent,
That could differential between pure or fake love.


- MaureenNg -

Deep Feeling of Lov3

Raining drop falls when the Lov3 is occur,
As the feeling of uncomfortable and unconformable.
Someone that knowledge me as the root of Lov3,
Wasn't easy be accepted by my mind.

Your eye could observe the action of mine,
Yet your eye couldn't see thou my heart.
Your mind could accept the facts of deep feeling Lov3,
Yet your mind couldn't gets what in my mind.


- MaureenNg -

School Started...

Maureen the MaoLian back again...

Hmmm... I'm just so lazy to update blog nowadays...
Reason is:

School...
Tuition...
Revision...

Ofcoz... There still have a reason that cannot less...

Hanging out with Boy Boy& Friend...

Ehehe...


Oh ya... Yesterday i went to Adam Salon with my boy boy... However the salon is moved... Lolx... It just beside Maha Lada Curry house... What The!! We just go to Pasar there from Boulevard then back again... swt... But the Hair Salon change till so nice... CooL~ So CLASS...


Oh ya... My friend CHRIS... His friend ( i wondering is who ) said my photo looks old... (=. =lll)
Really swt!!! So ya... I dun think my face suitable curly hair... hahaha... It makes me look more old... Is ok... Its not the 1st time ppl say me looks old... So i get use to it dy... Hahaha....


Hmm.... This few day din take any funny photo too... Nth much funny story to write... haha... Video i have but i dun have the converter... so i cant get the code to post it here... haha...


And also... I got some weirdo friend...
They are:

Wendy ( I often call her CHINA GIRL )
Zhong Ming ( I often call him CHINA BOY )
Alvex ( I often call him Small Kid )

Yesterday... I told my mom i hanging out with CHINA GIRL she got SHIOK... HAHAHAHAHA.... She asked me: why u got china friend?!!
Then i tell her she is Wendy, then she like (=. =lll)
I so bad ler.... GG...

And And And... I got a weirdo teacher... He is my Form teacher...
They are:

Encik Toda

Once he wrote his name on black board i like pronouns it as DOTA... Then my friend keep smile... swt!!! Cant blame... I keep Dota with my boy boy... haha....


hmmmm..... Nth to write le.... bye bye...