Heartache

Another day again... Past usually...
Without excitement, surprising and empty of meaning...
Its been 2 weeks, I still cant get what i really need... I'm absolutely lost...
How am i going to tell you?
Myself don't even know what I need...
There is something weighing on my mind... How do i release it?
Its empty up the source of my feelings...
I know happiness wasn't given by other but your ownself...
I try to smile... I try to happy...

Well... I admit that i need some entertainments...
To make me laugh and real happy thou my deep heart...
You restrict me with my friend... I let you do so... I listen to you...
But... After that, did you find any entertainment for me?
To make me laugh and happy thou my deep heart....

My phone is getting less and less beep on day by day...
I wonder is my friend don't dare to find me or their phone have no credit...
So i choose to be the one who make others phone beep...

Still remember that u say seeing I'm sad because my phone dosen't beep
and beep up my phone... But...
You forget nowadays... I'm always waiting for your call or even a text from you.... But...
I waited until i fell in sleep it still the same... No miss call.. No text from you...

You always act to be cold and strict... I felt disgusted with it...
I needs your sound of laugh and funny action...
If u did not do so... I choose to make you laugh... But...
I'm a human that have feeling... Wasn't a robot....
Will you make a surprise for me?

I'm getting tired with my life... I know...
Maybe there someone having more bad an experience than me...
I shouldn't tired with my life.. But...
I'm starting to give up slowly...
The sorrow of my heart just like the cancer eating my body cell slowly...



- MaureenNg -