stress

Its been a long time i'm dissappear in bloggie life... The reason is i wonder what can i share with all reader bout my life...

Nothing can describe how suffer i feel with the stress-ness around my life... Well... Maybe i'm just a little pile of sand case compare to others...

Sometime.....I really feel tired..... tired.... tired with my life.... It's really hard to stay in a city without money...

No MONEY = No TALK

Maureen Ng

A Never Ending Scar

Scar by ~Ernes on deviantART

Tolerant is the best way for the happiness to start,
Do you remember the white rose you gave me?
It's represent that how pure is our love,
Yet it couldn't stay white and pure for permanent.

Although it ever to be in bloom how beautiful it is,
It will wilt at last just like my heart die at last.
It's just a glamorous moment that we enjoy,
Just like you ever love me as deep as you are.


- MaureenNg -

The Tender Passion

You tell me that we should let go each other earlier,
walk over the beyond life of us...
I let go at last although i'm really don't want to give up...
Would you forgive me?

Forgive me decide to let you go,
Stay far from your shadow...
Let my mind swallow up your image in my memories,
Just to protect my heart will not get hurt by you...

Yet... Have you ever think that?
I'm do really appreciate you whatever you are...
I try to love as much as deep i could,
Yet... I can't do it for you anymore...
You dosen't belong to mine anymore...

I don't know that you really mean to or not,
I felt that you always act to be cool infront of me..
Our love just like the deep shore of the sea...
Unreachable... Unfeelable... Unreplyable...

It's like the cancer eat up my feeble's heart...
Hurt me so bad.... Really painfull...
Please forgive for my selfishness...
I admit that im a sympathetic person...

I'm afraid... Afraid to be hurt again...
I'm tired... Tired to be in love again...
I'm sad... Sad to stay away from you...
I'm pain... Pain force to forget you...

Will you still stay for me?? I know i'm stupid....


- MaureenNg -

Happy Birthday lovely Mom

I'm so sorry to all of my blogdie readers that i'm lack of posing nowadays...
It is because I'm busy hanging out with my friends " YAM CHA "... haha....
This time might be a short post only.... haha...
Well... Yesterday was Hari Gawai was also my MoM's birthday.. hehe....
How good when your birthday is on public holiday...
Can celebrate every year without caring others cant attend your birthday party... Haha...
Unlike me.... My birthday always in Every year Sch Sem Exam.... Bek chek...

My lovely mom and lil brother....

- MaureenNg -

Happy Birthday to Me

It's Official. I am finally 16 years old today.

Ofcoz... Everyone wish to get present on the day of birthday...
I want to thanks to all of my friend that wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY...
Also for my classmate and schoolmate...
Good Luck in Mid Year Examination...

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I do really surprise with the birthday card i got today...
I though it's from my Mom...
However, it's from my beloved Ming...

I know I know... It's cute enough... XD

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Another gift from Ming too...
Well... You will not want to know what is inside...
The secret that can't be tell... XD

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Wishes from friend...
Present from beloved...
Birthday cake cant be less too....


Nice is it... HahaX...
Ice-cream cake... Our beloved cake favour...

I wasn't closing my eyes but the angle makes me like closing my eyes...
Rest in peace?!?!! ( choi~!) hahaX...

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Thats all for today to pass up my birthday....
Happy Birthday Me...


- MaureenNg -

The ENVY feeling

I felt a pang of ENVY at the thought of his freedom...
In the world of 24th century...
Why there still some guys having an ancient thinking...
How come you can get your enjoyment of ease and comfort of freedom but i can't...
Don't you ever think that its unfair for me...

Whenever i see your friend care about you...
I miss my friend...
Whenever i see you hang out with your friend...
I miss my friend...
Whenever i try to call my friend...
I can only tell myself not to think much...

I spend all my time with you...
I put all intentions on you...
But you still can't get what i want...
You make me feel sad in the end...

I really ENVY you....
I DO REALLY ENVY YOU!!!

I know i will not get back my freedom once im still be with you...

- MaureenNg -

Heartache

Another day again... Past usually...
Without excitement, surprising and empty of meaning...
Its been 2 weeks, I still cant get what i really need... I'm absolutely lost...
How am i going to tell you?
Myself don't even know what I need...
There is something weighing on my mind... How do i release it?
Its empty up the source of my feelings...
I know happiness wasn't given by other but your ownself...
I try to smile... I try to happy...

Well... I admit that i need some entertainments...
To make me laugh and real happy thou my deep heart...
You restrict me with my friend... I let you do so... I listen to you...
But... After that, did you find any entertainment for me?
To make me laugh and happy thou my deep heart....

My phone is getting less and less beep on day by day...
I wonder is my friend don't dare to find me or their phone have no credit...
So i choose to be the one who make others phone beep...

Still remember that u say seeing I'm sad because my phone dosen't beep
and beep up my phone... But...
You forget nowadays... I'm always waiting for your call or even a text from you.... But...
I waited until i fell in sleep it still the same... No miss call.. No text from you...

You always act to be cold and strict... I felt disgusted with it...
I needs your sound of laugh and funny action...
If u did not do so... I choose to make you laugh... But...
I'm a human that have feeling... Wasn't a robot....
Will you make a surprise for me?

I'm getting tired with my life... I know...
Maybe there someone having more bad an experience than me...
I shouldn't tired with my life.. But...
I'm starting to give up slowly...
The sorrow of my heart just like the cancer eating my body cell slowly...



- MaureenNg -